Fell into the options trap lost almost everything

Long time lurker, first time poster (was hoping to never post loss porn here)

Started trading last year with $200k in taxable and $100k in IRA.

Made some very good back to back trades in both starting with the LIDAR theme in a few small caps, ran my IRA up to over $1M and my taxable hit $2.3M during the pump of a very specific fake meat company.

Made a few mistakes but still had about $600k in my IRA (transferred to Robinhood to be able to trade more easily) and $1.4M in my taxable. My friend begged me to stop but I wanted to spin up the accounts to bigger numbers.

I took a few more trades, ended up down to $380k or so in my IRA and $900k in my taxable. Decided to take out $500k finally because of my friend.

Put everything in VOO and had $500k in my bank for a bit, but then wanted to make some trades. Made a couple of decent ones but then started playing around with options and 0dtes.

Got absolutely tilted and then just nuked my accounts bit a bit… and then by a lot. Thought I could make it back with some of the remaining cash I had and deposited that into Robinhood as well only to lose that too.

Down to $28k in my IRA and about $25k in my taxable.

Feeling highly regarded. I basically had financial freedom if I just kept everything in indexes but no…. my retirement and life money are gone. The only bright side is that I paid my taxes and I still have an emergency fund.

Still in a bit of denial and hoping I can make the money back with more "disciplined" "trading"

Did you know it only takes 95 trades of compounding 5% and I can make everything back in a year?

Will only take me a decade plus to make it back. No big deal. Hating myself at the moment and hope you guys only do the first part of what I did.

EDIT: The gains in my all time taxable are gone because of taxes. Also I had to create a separate day trading account. Total combined losses for the year are around $350k in my taxable.