Studying Economics at university right now, when did you guys realise it was a mistake but realised this is just your life now?

I want to die, I love economics and I knew the math that would be involved but having two back to back exams for Macro and Micro I never want to see it again, economics has taken over my life. At this point I see it in my dreams, sometimes I hallucinate and see Keynes or Friedman looking back at me I swear. Why do we pretend like this is a science when it feels just like a form of psychosis at this point? (this is a joke don't take down my post please <3)