Restarting at 28 after blowing savings

I think I’ve blown 80k through reckless day trading since I’ve started working. I was clean for nearly 2 years and relapsed because of the war and crazy volatility with oil price. I was in a very profitable position and held some losing trades far too long and being a sore loser ended up blowing it all and being reckless with leverage.

I’m obviously devastated because it’s meant I’ve spent majority of my 20s to work with nothing to show for. If my income stays the same realistically looking to have at least 20% of the amount I lost by year end. No debt and just get student loan deductions.

Is there anyone out there, who’s been in this place and what did you do mentally and financially to begin the recovery phase? What age did you have to reset and restart when you realised enough is enough and you cannot continue to piss money down the drain ?

I feel old asf

Has anyone been to a gamblers anonymous meeting in person. How are they and do you make good friends there to have support. I think many of us keep these devastating losses to ourselves myself included.

I’m London uk based